The leading lady of his life

Two is better then one

i hurt him once again. :(
i jus wish i could end my life nw?
i hurt him again & agian.
i reali wish he could be happy lyk he use to be.
but i hurt him.
haiz... i sori baby.. i seriously mean wad i said nw.
i reali sori.....
i reali neebr forget wad i use to promise eu.. jus nw eu kol mie.
ur sound lyk eu seem to be crying. it reali hurt mie hell lots...
i am sori... tis will be de last time i gonna hurt eu le.
BABY CN EU FORGIVE MY MISTAKE & WILLING TO LET MIE CHANGE FOR DE BETTER.
I SERIOUSLY LOVE EU ALOT. I REALI TRYING TO BE A GD GF?

todae went see doc alone.
i was lyk waiting for so long all by myself.
arr.... i having urin infection. next week still mus go back.
haiz.. i carnt fall asleep either nw.
all i cn do nw is drink my whole bottle of cough medicine & drown myself to fall asleep :(

mie & baby had been together for 10 dae.
ILOVEYOU baby;

label: i am sori baby :'(

xoxo,

ytd had a qurreal wib baby...
i cried badly while toking to him cn...
i feel lyk i am such a failure.
mayb i am nod a gd gf....
all i wanted was eu to be happy & eu to love mie dat all...
haiz... everything my fault i am to blame... i am nod a gd gf.
all i cn say nw is i am sori baby. :(
frm nw on there won be anyone whom i cn trust anymore.
i will believe in myself & baby.
i hope he will onli believe wad i said & nod wad an outsider said

nowadyas was rotting ad hme.
its dame boring cn..
todae went dentist appointment.
ouch.. my stomach & teeth is killing mie nw...
stomach was pain frm ytd till nw.
my stomach is dunno is pain or cramp sial... dame pain
gonna see a doc tml? fear dat sumthing will happen to mie?
i ask baby a silly question.
i ask him if one dae anything happen to mie will he be by my side?
his ans is ya...
hope nth will happen to mie bah?

mie & baby had been together for 9 dae.
ILOVEYOU baby.
wonder wad surprise will baby give mie :D

label: All i want for christmas is.....YOU

xoxo,

todae 4+ went plaza slack wib shi hui baobei wib my lil bro.
after dat rush hme & pepared.
took cab to cine mit baby.
after dat went shopping around.
den headed to juntion 8 baby plan to watch movie de but neber.

so went ten mile cause baby promise her parent dat he wan buy pizza for them.
buy wanted to buy rose for mie de.
but he sort of cash. so nbm i dun mind ad all de (:
cause i noe baby is in need of cash so i think of him.
den went ten mile collect baby de pizza.
Den took train back hme.
haiz..... baby told mie nowadays he think alot of thing.
i cried infront of him cn?
mostly is abt money & mie haiz...
baby i reali dun wan eu think so mani thing anymore. i dame worried for baby kkz haiz....

mie & baby had been together for 8 dae.
ILOVEYOU baby.

baby.
i noe in de past i didn't learn to treasure eu.
nw i willing to give up anything for eu
& i will treasure eu no matter wad.
i noe eu fear dat i will empty promise.
i swaer dat i won empty any promise anymore.
i seriously love eu baby.

xoxo,

weets.. had a fun dae wib baby.
pei baby they all go collect their pay first den headed to old woodland.
xu de kor went there buy his hp & alvin went their buy his thing.
had sum tiff wib baby haiz..
he said i show attitude to him. wth when did i show attitude to him sial?
haiz............
after xu de kor buy his phone liao.
he smoke wib xu de kor they all..
haiz....... he once siad he will quit smoking.. where is all his word dat he said to mie gone too... haiz....
my mood totally change ok...
he said he will give up anything for mie but he fail to do so..
i told him i dun lyk guy whu smoke den i told him try to smoke kkz he said ok..
but he seem to forget ok...
haizzz.....
thing isn't de same anymore ...

i went see wad cloth shall i buy for baby for christmas.
saw a cloth which cost $30
its a formal shirt & plus a cardigine
total it cost $30.
goin to buy it before chritsmas.

saw a skirt which cost $ 18 & a cardigine cost $18
i want to buy de but i think i will buy it after christmas bah?
baby ask mie wad i wan he will buy
but end up nth caught my eye & its too ex.. i dun wan spent baby money ahahs.

reach hme around 10+ todae.
so guai cn hahas.

mie & baby had been together for 6 dae.
ILOVEYOU my baby.
31 dae to christmas.
wonder wad baby goin to buy for mie & de surprise is wad ahahs =D

xoxo,

Baby i miss you dame lots.
finally tml get to see baby le.
goin to enjoy my dae wib baby tml.

rotting myself ad hme de whole dae todae.
ytd 4+ den slp todae 3+ woke up.
waited for baby to end work.
kol him for awhile he kol mie to go slp i dun wan.
so chiong my hei tang ma qi duo de show.
finally i watch finish all le.part 1 & 2 finally watch all by one dae.
after watching finish kol baby ask him where is he as i am worried for baby.
hae said in de bus he keep koling my go slp first.
den i go slp lor he reach hme le msg mie said he reach hme le i kol him go slp early.
already 5+ i carnt fall asleep. plan to kol baby tok de but i think he is asleep le bah & summore he work till tired den dun disturb him le.
first i wake up ad 9+ cause stupid bro keep playing wib his soccer ball. den i shout ad him. den msg baby see weather he wake up liao mah?
den second time i wake up is 10+ cause stupid bro boliao kol my phone he tot is my marmie. i tot whu kol mie sial.
third time i wake up is 12+ cause marmie ask mie wan to go out mah? wake up eat. den i said i dun wan go out & ltr den eat.
forth time i wake up is ad 2+ marmie they all fall asleep oso expect for my bro.
i went back to slp. slp all de till 3+ den amrmie they all go pei my daddi go out den i all alone ad hme. baby kol mie chat awhile den he go prepared go out.

we tok onli less den an hour den hang up le. raining heavily i kol baby bring umbrella go work dunno he gt bring anort? i dun wan baby get sick.

baby no matter wad happen to eu i goin to stay by ur side nw & forever till de dae eu left mie.
ILOVEYOU baby

mie & baby had been together for 5 days le
ILOVEYOU baby.
count down to 32 dae to christmas..
wonder wad surprise will baby give mie =D
gonna save money to buy present for baby

xoxo,

arrr.. rotting ad hme.
baby cum pei mie awhile den he went off to work le.
glad dat he todae acc mie if nod i rotting ad hme.

ytd went greenridge rented vcd 黑糖玛奇朵
OMG.. de show dame nice cn. chiong part 1 ytd by one dae.
den tml goin to rent part 2 le.
OMG. i addict to 王子 & 丫头 in tis show...

mie & baby had been together for 3 dae.
christmas faster cum wor?
i wonder wad surprsie will baby give mie hehe :D
ILOVEYOU baby;

baby,
our relationship is getting more & more better le.
i reali hope we will stay lyk tis forever.
remember our promise wor.
we've been together for 3 dae.
no matter 3 dae or 3 month or 3 year.
our love will be a everlasting love.
ILOVEYOU derek chua

xoxo,

BABY I AM SORI =(

sori dat i neber trust ur love
its de third time i hear eu crying on de phone.
its my fault whu hurting eu times & times again

i am so stupid to have such a thought.
i tried myself nod to think back but i fail.
seem lyk tis time i reali hurt eu
i am sori.
you are a gd boyfriend to mie but i carnt seem to treasure it
baby i am sori i am nod a gd girlfreind ='(
i seriously love eu baby.

xoxo,

WE ARE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN 21 11 o7

i reali hope tis time round there won be anymore tiff between us anymore.
alot of thing cum through my mind?
does he reali love mie?
will he ive up everything for mie lyk he once said before?
does he still care abt how i feel?

haiz its onli de first dae & i still have tis type of thought.
haiz. i reali dunno wad am i thinking?
mayb thing will get better as dae goes by bah?

xoxo,

arrr.. i getting more & more sick le.
haiz. there won be any caring frm you anymore.
haiz life is boring for mie haiz.
i need a shoulder to lean to?
i need a shoulder to cry to?
i need you badly boy.
did eu noe how important eu mean to mie?
it hurt mie to said goodbye?
who will i run to? who will i turn to ?now that you left mie behine who will dry my tears when i cry?

to him
we've been apart for 4 days le.
haiz. i still miss de dae wib eu
eu are so silly to give up everything for mie.
tis jus nod worth.
haiz. i reali hope everything eu said its true
dun give mie false hope cn?
remember wad promise eu make for mie wor?

wadever thing eu do think before eu do?
i still do care & love eu
my love derek chua

xoxo,

have been falling so ill lately.
went timah early in de morning for my appointment.
ouch... my teeth do hurt nw kkz. ='(
wib all his support i will learn to be strong =)
but i still do miss him alot. we've have been parted for 3 days already.
even do we still contact each other but we still a great fren.
mayb we've been parted is a gd choice is time for us to refelct our wrongs?

mayb fate will bring us back soon.

I miss your touch,
With your loving cares
I miss your love,
When I laid against your chest.

I miss your smile.
As we laughed all night.
I miss your eyes,
With them sparkling bright.

I miss our fights,
After all the tears.
I miss our laughs,
Inside jokes over the years.

Put it together,
And you will see.
I miss you,
Baby, were meant to be.

to him
thanx for ur care & corncer
eu have change eu totally nod same as de past le.
even do we are nod together eu still do care abt mie.
dat time eu remember eu kol mie & said all does word reali touch mie alot.
lyk todae ytd i told eu i scared
eu gave mie ur support. eu have reali change.
i promise eu i will change & i mean wad i've said.
i will wait for christmas to see wad surprise eu will give mie (:
remember de promise we make (:
i hope eu mean wad eu said?
dun give mie false hope wor ?
my love derek chua

xoxo,

I DO MISS YOU BOY;

went out wib marmie, daddi & di di
went beauty world.
after dat went batok broguht myself a thing to decorate my room.

arr... tml goin have a teeth operation le how?
wad am i goin to do nw?
i have a fear of injection? how....
there won be ppl cheering mie up & give mie support le :'(

having a bad flu & a bad sore throat :(

i told myself to forget how much i hurt eu & eu hurt mie?
everytime i hear de song eu kol mie find.
i started to miss eu
without eu in my life its seem so different.
i reali wan ur love back
i will change myself to de past mie before christmas
which i promise de (:
i will be right here waiting for eu no matter wad
my love derek chua x33

xoxo,

11 o6 o7 - 16 11 o7
our 12 month 6 dae relationship jus end lyk tis. x/33

memories is all i have nw.
thanx for giving such a nice memories.
thanx for acting lyk eu care.
its hurt mie to leave eu alone.
but since tis is your decision eu make i will respect it.

tis word i said i had no regret.
eu are my first guy make mie fall in love deeply & neber regret.
i won find any guy other den eu. & i mean it.

my last love derek chua le xiang.
you will oways be in my heart & neebr be replace.

to him ( if he gt see tis)
thanx for everything.
all tis while eu de guy whom i love alot.
& dat true.
i noe i do so mani thing dat make eu sad & hurt.
its my fault for making eu do all tis thing.
i am a big failure & dat true.
i carnt keep a relationship & make it last.
i am useless kkz.
mayb i am nod gd for eu.
hope eu will find a better gerl den mie
eu mus treasure her lots.
& dun be too stubborn if ur next time de stead kol eu do wad mus listen.eu angry dun said does hurtful word to ur next time de stead.
lyk mie eu angry eu will said all does hurtful word to hurt mie. eu mus change for ur future de stead kkz. mayb i'm nod gd enough for eu.
hope eu find ur ture love soon.
takecare of urself & ur health.
dun smoke too much & ur hand take ur medicine.

xoxo,

HAIZ..
ytd had a big qurreal wib hubby nearly lead to break.
haiz. i reali dunno wad does he reali wan.
does his feeling faded.
i oways thinking weather is he my mr right?
ytd he said does word reali hurt mie hell lots.
eu said eu dun have mie as ur gf eu oso nbm de.
eu gt think before ue said tis word mah?
mayb eu did regret been wib mie

he said oways wadever thing i do he will owyas ren.
den he cn ren i oso gt ren ok.
eu show mie attitude i ren nbm.
den eu said does hurtful word to mie i ren nbm.
eu see gerl & said other pretty all tis i ren.
haiz. if one day i ren wu ke ren le i reali dunno wad stupid thing i will do.
mayb i carnt be perfect as wad eu think?
mayb ur feeling already i oso dunno. i noe everything my fault ok.

mayb we carnt go back to de past le?
haiz i reali dunno.
if i had one wish
i wish de time will turn back to de past.
hubyy no matter wad happen i willing to give up anything jus for eu.
I LOVE MY ONE & ONLI HUBBY

xoxo,

HAPPY 12 MONTH ANNIVESARY x33

todae didn't manage to celebrate our 12 month
cause hubby working =(
but nbm.

have been rotting ad hme
whn cn see hubby. i miss him tons..

11 june 2oo7 xiang x33 yuen
hubby, this is where our love begin
your warm words scal my scars
Love bonds just like chemistry

Kissing&Hugging are just like biology

Days are just like mathematics

Love poems are just like literature

Paris , our honeymoon is just like geography

The power of love is just like art&&

Memories are just like history

i love you every single day , every single breathe , every single mintues.

no one could tears us apart

no bitches&bastards will come along

i would protect you in my heart

i would rather die in your arms , because i say so

i love you that you

xoxo,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI YI LAOPOx33

its been so long since i last blog le (:
my friendster de website carnt login.
everytime appread error all tis.

o5 nov 2oo7
went mit hubby ad greenridge plaza
after dat went his hse.
hubby slp awhile. i watching his bro play game.
after dat hubby wake up le.
went out have our dinner.
den after dinner hubby de father sent mie hme.

o6 nov 2oo7

went out wib hubby they all.
finally hubby gt off day le.
went old woodland wib hubby, alvin & xu de kor.
after dat see them play arcade & pool.
den after dat went to park walk walk.
there so lil ppl kkz.
after went to de park. we went back panjang.
den go find hubby de one more fren.
den went bankit cause xu de kor wan buy hp. after dat went blk slack
we slack till 11+ den go hme.

o8 nov 2oo7
went hubby de hse find him.
den went his cousin de hse.
after dat went old woodland.
hubby brought 2 belt. i broght my mickey mouse earring.
after eating went play arcade wib hubby de bro & sis
i reali enjoy myself cn hahas.

o9 nov 2oo7
stay ad hme rotting all de way.
ad hme too boring le cam whoring lor.
den after dat pei sis go plaza go trim my eyebrown wib sis.
den buy hair dye. after dat dye myself lor.
i dye my hair light neber dye lyk dat cause under light den cn see de colour

1o nov 2oo7
laopo de birthday todae.
neber celebrate her birthday.
arrr. i need $$$ i need a job badly.
went my grandma hse.before reaching there daddi bring us gode bukit timah hill there see monkey -.- lol. took sum pic of de moneky hahas.

mie & hubby had been together for 11 month 31 dae
tml our 12 month annivesary.
ILOVEYOU x33

xoxo,

have been rotting ad hme.
hubby i miss eu dame lots cn.
when den cn see eu?

PEIYI laopo & LEEBIN birthday cuming le.
dunno will be celebrating their birthday.
i dunno wad present to buy for them hahas.

MIAING now.
hahas.. won be onlineing anymore hahas.

mie & hubby had been together for 11 month 24 dae.
ILOVEYOU;

falling in love

Y

falling in love consist merely in
uncorking the imagination and
bottling the common sense.

xoxo,

todae hubby working OT .
sadded.

todae went out wib marmie & her frenz.
brought a red skinny jeans & hot pink skinny jeans.
actually wan buy white but dun have my size.
so i buy hot pink.
i oso brought a dress & a photo fram for myself.

hubby its been 2 dae since i last saw hubby.
everything seem to went on smoothly without qurreal.
i hate does crying game between us?

mie & hubby had been together for 11 month 23 dae.
ILOVEYOU;

NOW THAT WE ARE TOGETHER

it was worth every minute.
the happiness and the pain were like
exciese for my heart, each time
leaving it in better shape
than before.

xoxo,

ytd had a big qurreal wib hubby
we almost break up again.
haiz.

goin MIA le.
haiz tis month is jus a bad month for mie.

tml goin out wib marmie
goin to spent her money le hehe

mie & hubby had been together for 11 month 22 dae.
ILOVEYOU;

hubby
i reali wan ur trust & love.
nw i do realise how important eu are to mie.
sori for all de thing dat i do to make eu sad.
i will promise eu i won empty promise anymore.
i will stay by ur forever.
i reali wan our relationship to be lyk de past.
you said i've change
i promise eu i will change mean i will change.

i mean wad i have said.
no matter wad i do trust eu & myslef.
i won trust anybody anymore.
ILOVEYOU XIANG XIANG HUBBY YY

xoxo,

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