The leading lady of his life

Two is better then one

Attend my cousin wedding last night.
felt really happy & bless for them. 8 years + relationship & they still standing strong walking down the red carpet and start of their new chapter of life. seeing them lyk this i believe true love still exist.

from classmate to lover & now husand & wife..
seeing their short video of them been together make me think of de 5th year promise we use to make to each other.. *let de past become memories* & their cute cartoon video to thanks de guest for coming. ok all this make my heart sour and feel lyk tearing. dame it. but hopefully everything goes smoothly for them.

slowly moving on and getting use to life without K.. even though sometime he really make me go to de extend dat make me dun feel lyk goin home. glad he is moving on with his life well now with his fren & gfs... partying all day long getting wasted :D (when he use to hate it in de past) never fail to keep texting me ended up getting cold reply from me.wadever.

went to gan ma house saty overnight before heading to cousin wedding dinner.
i swear i didnt slp well at all omg de air con is super cold till i decide to slp on de sofa instead of gan ma room. woke up in de middle of de night receiving a unpleasent text from K dame it totally screw everything.
gan ma ask me when my turn to get married i laugh to myself and tel her i single how to married she was shock and same thing wad adult will say "you so pretty & still young scared no one wan eu meh* everyone was so shock to hear i am single. pretty this word totally not suite me hahas :D such a ugly girl lyk me saying pretty is jus nonsense.

xoxo,

my last post to this boy..

just wanna say thank you for all this wonderful time we spend this 4years5month of love..
sorry for been the one to hurt you. you might say i am heartless enought to move on this time.
you should noe yourself de best how much ii been through with you this 4 years. less happy time but more quarrel. i noe i am de heartless one now casuing everyone to think that i am de one who didnt give eu de chance to mend back...

looking back...
after eu get this job everything seem to change jus one particular girl could make me wad am i today.
all my tears shed, tolerating, bee treated lyk a toy dat wadever i do i wont get appreciate. every date we had is all i plan but wad you did nothing. been handling ur hot & cold temper. all this make me tired really tired. mayb i love & care for eu in de wrong way dat make eu breathless.. ya partly my fault i lied but i am lyk a dog begging eu to stay ended up i am force to choose a decision. i am force to grow up & move on. dat very first night we get back i noe i should'nt have seen ur phone but i did seeing eu & bitch text eu tel her eu single, call her darling & ended wtih a love you hurt my heart deeply. but all i can do is kept quiet you make me think alot dat night, thinking i am trying my best to save this relatonship yet been treated lyk this. thinking how many chance i given eu de first time eu call her darling nvm i kept quiet, 2nd time eu took a very close pic with her when she hug eu & eu hug her back how eu wan me to react i treat it as if nothing went wrong. after i make my choice i really have to let you go. i knew you have change but there won't be any turning back. phobia in everything now. how long will eu chage i dunno. 4 years i noe its hard to let go but i am heartless enough to move on. seeing eu tears make my heart hurt but i can't do anything now since this is the path eu force me to go through.. please don't came looking back for me cause i ain't coming back to eu anymore 最熟悉的陌生人... tears are dry & heart already die. 忘了我好不... not worth ur love anymore.

goodbye KASH 09thApril200810:30pm

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求

xoxo,

MSmelissa Sweet 20
I may not be that perfect in people eyes, i hide my tears away from you & don't allow you to knows cause i don't want you to see the weakest part of me. Judge me from who i am not from your eyes

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